Wasting Time

I have my final final exam in one hour. I hate last minute studying and figure if I do not know it now I am not going to learn it. Plus I got 87% on the practice exam and have 85% in the course right now. So I am wasting time but trying to feel busy for the next hour, what to do? I was thinking of planning more stuff for Japan but then I might get confused with Japanese, English, and French in my head (my exam is French). I contemplated posting this blog in french and then being able to claim that I was 'studying' for my final but I do not know how to say half of what is on my mind in french.

I am hoping to have figured out what I am doing for the next year before I go to Japan, I have a tenative meeting with Justin to discuss the internship program in the week that I am in Maple Ridge before I go to Japan so hopefully that will help me know what I am supposed to do. This week I need to make appointments with advisors here on campus to confirm that I only have the two courses left and to evaluate options.

I am glad that these last few days are finished, I do not recommend writing 5 exams in 6 days and finishing a paper while studying for said exams. This semester has definately been my toughest one yet, I feel like I have been through a battle, which in many ways I have been and am still going through one, on the spiritual front.

In other news I cut my hair, it now very short. I can no longer put it up in any way as the longest pieces are at the base of my neck. I really like it and it is so easy to take care of. Since I have such fine hair I can literaly roll out of bed and shake my head and my hair is ready for the day. I will try to post a picture this week so you can see what it looks like, but first I have to figure out how to upload the pictures off my camera and then how to post them. Guess now is the time to learn.

Well that was a good 15 minutes wasted. Take care and God bless.

Almost done

Three exams are down and two more to go. Yeah. I am getting so excited as plans are comming together for Japan. I still have no clue as to what I am doing once I get back but we will see what happens.

I went to the doctor this week cause I found a lump in my ankle. Thankfully it is nothing serious, just a syst (sp?). But I might have to get it removed because of the location so that will kind of suck depending on when I can get in to have the surgery and how long I would be on crutches for. But I am not going to do anything until I get back from Japan anyway.

Other than that nothing new has been happening in my life other than exams, essays, and figuring out the future. Thankfully, I am done essays now and will be done exams on Monday then I can relax. Not, then I have to clean my house and get everything in order for leaving town for a month.

Hope that all is going well with all of you out there and I will talk to you soon and keep you posted on developments in my life.

God bless and have a great day.

contemplating life

I am getting so excited, I have one week of classes left then exams. I am finding it difficult to believe that in less than 3 weeks I will be done my fourth year of university. Where has the time gone it feels like I just moved to Kamloops a few weeks ago and here we are four and a half years later. Have I learned anything? Doesn't really seem like it but I know I have. I have definately got a clearer vision of who I am and what it means to be myself instead of what others want you to be and I have learned to rely on God more than myself. But as for in class learning I feel as though I still have not learned enough for a job, granted it has been fun and I have enjoyed it for the most part but it is feeling pretty useless right about now. I think that I have actually learned more than I realize but an english and geography degree seems rather pointless especially since I will most likely end up working at Walmart, Tim Hortons, or some other similar location for the next year. Why have I aquired so much debt and stress to be back where I was four years ago when I started my university journey? Where is life heading? What am I to do next? What is God's plan for my life?

Wow hows that for some heavy questions at 8 in the morning.

Little lonley

Feeling rather lonely today. It has been one of those days when I really dislike being single. I know that I do not need a guy to complete me but still it would be nice to know that there was someone to spend my friday night with. It seems like everyone around me is pairing off and I am feeling left out. I ask myself what is wrong with me? Then I am reminded that God is in control, not me, and it will all work out in His time and I have to be patient. There are days when I really feel ready to be married and start a family then other times were I definately am not.

I think that part of the problem is that I am the age that my sister was when she moved in with her partner, although they did not get married for 5 years, I am the age that she was when she settled down and so I think that subconsciously I am feeling like I am behind again. I think that it is all coming back to comparing myself to me sister and feeling insecure and not good enough because I am not her. I then have to remind myself that this is an issue that I have taken care of before and it is not for me to reawaken all the hurt associated with it. When I start feeling as though I am going to reopen the door on hurts that I have dealt with already I turn it over to God and tell him to answer the door and deal with Satan. I need to remaember that it is not mine to deal with God can.

I know that there is someone out there for me that is hand chosen by God and when the time is right I will meet him. Until this time I must focus on my relationship with Christ and allow him to direct my path. Living in communion with Christ is the way to fulfill all my desires.

Well that is all that I is my insight for the day and I am feeling better for having written out my thoughts and in doing so reminding myself that I am not in control but God is and He has a plan for me that is greater than any plan I have for myself.

Perhaps I should have put a warning label on this one that it contains some rather intense theology and reasoning. Oh well guess you will all have to suffer through it.

Times to come

So I have a week and half left of classes then on to exams. The next three weeks are going to be crazy this is what it looks like so far:

Thurs April 3rd classes, write 7 page research paper
Fri April 4th classes, work semester wrap up meeting/party
Sat April 5th research for my Milton paper (topic to be decided)
Sun April 6th Church, finish research
Mon April 7th classes (quiz on a novel I have yet to start reading), work
Tues April 8th classes
Wed April 9th classes
Thurs April 10th classes, meeting for work, review session for work (still need to plan this)
Fri April 11th last day of classes - yeah - Milton paper due (still need to determine topic, research, and write)
Sat April 12th work 1-3 final review session (still need to plan)
Sun April 13th church
Mon April 14th nothing yet
Tues April 15th nothing yet
Wed April 16th 8-10 Geography of Japan final, 2-5 Milton final
Thurs April 17th 2-5 Early Modern Brit Lit final
Fri April 18th observe two review sessions for work
Sat April 19th 2-5 Attitudes toward the environment final
Sun April 20th church, observe two review sessions for work
Mon April 21st 2-4 French final (yeah last final)
Tues April 22nd observe review session for work
Wed April 23rd-Mon April 28th write paper on land readjustment in Japan, study for quiz, get everything ready for trip, clean house, start stat analysis and reports for work, organize office for work
Tues April 29th pre-trip quiz for Japan
May 3rd ish go to parents and see everyone
May 12-June 2 Japan

So that is what my life looks like so far for the next two months however, I am sure that I have left many things out and will be adding many more things.

Hope that your life is slightly less hectic than mine is feeling right now, but it will definately be fun. I am getting so excited for Japan and for a break from school. However, I am also becoming more stressed by the day with not knowing what I am doing after about the middle of June.

Have a great day, God Bless, Talk to you soon.