out of place in Kamloops

It is so weird to be back in Kamloops and know that this is it. I have been having very mixed emotions about moving back home. I still believe that it is what I am supposed to do but there is so much here in Kamloops that I am going to miss.

I am at the school now, since this is the only internet access that I have, and am trying to motivate myself into getting work done. So far it is not working so well although I have checked my emails and am now posting here.

There is not much new with me other than remembering how much work packing is. I forgot how much stuff I had so I am trying to sort through things and get rid of stuff that I do not have any need for rather than pack it down to the coast with me. I am trying to organize my packing so that as my things are in storage I will be able to easily find what I am looking for if I find that I am needing something that is packed away. It is an interesting time.

Yesterday was miracle sunday at church and we had a visiting pastor from Glad Tidings in Chilliwack preach, he was amazing. Listening to him it is easy to see why Glad Tidings is succeeding so well, God is there and is the leader not man. Both services yesterday were amazing and I am very glad that I was there but it was weird I no longer feel as though I belong at BTC which was further confirmation that I am supposed to move on to the next stage in my life. The church that has felt like home for so long no longer does, it was a very weird experience. I realize now that I was a place in my life where I needed to be ministered to and not have a leading role. These past four years have been a time of searching and learning who I am and what I believe and as such I was in a position of needing ministering rather than giving. I now believe that I am ready to reenter the ministry realm. I was talking to the Children's pastor at the coast about becoming invloved with the sunday school again once I am back down there. He was very open to it and apparently there is a position with the grade 4's opening up this summer and that is the age group that I would love to work with the most. God is good, he keeps giving me these signs of confirmation that I am heading in the right direction and he is preparing the way for me. I am so excited to see what will come next.

Love you all, take care and God bless.